Guys,
I've been really bad with my blog recently.
Sorry!
I just don't really know what to do with it because I like blogging for the sake of keeping up with friends, sharing stories and writing, but I don't want to have to try be creative. If I come up with something, then I'll write on it and that will be that.
So basically I haven't thought of anything to write about and this is a really boring post.
But I will share my thoughts on my baby sister because she's been consuming my thoughts/prayers/conversations for the past couple months :D.
Although I think that its strange that I'm at school while my family is taking delight in a new member, I love how connected I can still be to the "going ons" of my household. I believe that connection comes from sharing such close quarters with my family for most of my life. And I really appreciate that security of coming home and feeling like I haven't been gone for the past two months, which is how I felt during my recent trip home on fall break. By the grace of God, I'm so lucky to have such a large family. Sure the challenges of the family hadn't disappeared, but the fact is that (for the most part) we can get past those conflicts and focus on having a good time when we all get together. Obviously, my parents play a huge part in my family's connection and who I am today. What I love the most about their parenting style is that they have so much going on that I have the space to properly develop and come to them if I need to. They are not the type of parents who pester their child but I trust them so I want to tell them all the major changes going on in my life.
Anyway, so Stella Therese Marian is gorgeous and so so so tiny! I'm always amazed at how dependent babies are of others, but just holding that tiny, innocent, precious life does something to the human heart. How can purity of soul not affect us jaded ones? I look back on that short time that I got to meet her and I feel so blessed. And to think that I am the godmother of her, especially when she has her whole life in front of her! Just think of the potential! I would love to grow up as the baby of the family so that I could see the experience of others and distinguish who was successful or doing well so that I could plan my life in search of the same happiness.
I am still astounded at how much love can pour forth from my heart because of such a tiny person. I can't wait to see what she will be like. What is her personality? Who will she take after? Will she survive being the youngest, especially after three boys? She's going to have to be a strong person for sure because there is a lot of competition in my family. What's she going to look like? God, do you think, maybe, if she could, like you know, take after me? Pretty please? Because that would be so cool. AHHH I can't wait to show her the ropes! I can't wait to see how God will use her in this crazy thing called life.
