WELLLL
I have some news.
As I'm sitting here, figuring out how to say this, I look down at my last post about the beach. One sentence sticks out to me - "I'm enjoying this season of my life."
If you knew about recent events, you would look at my life now and think to yourself, "That statement does not portray how she feels now."
And a couple of days ago I would have agreed.
However, I've had a little time to think, pray, prepare and I know now.
My soccer dreams have not been in vain. Sure I have a Jones Fracture in my 5th metatarsal base. But if I want to succeed in life than I have to take any and every experience as a growing experience.
I feel like my world has been turned upside down and I have learned alot about myself. This is just the beginning of what's to come and I'm not worried.
A part of that comfort and confidence comes from me saying good-bye to control. I have a very extroverted personality and I'm a bit of a control freak. I have a choleric temperament that I get from my mother (go figure). This fracture is not something I can control so I need to stop blaming myself and start working on other stuff. Dwelling on myself being injured is pretty depressing and I'm not the kind of person who wants to be depressed for even a second.
This summer I spent a good amount of time working on my fitness and it's hard to not see that time as being a waste now. One thing I've learned is that my time is not God's time. And I know there is such wisdom in His planning. Do I like being humbled? No, but I really appreciate it later.
Maybe this is His way of saying slow down. I want you to enjoy the relationships you are fostering now. I want you to lean on me at this time because I am carrying you.
Maybe I don't have to know what I'm supposed to learn from this.
It's OK for me to suffer a bit. It's OK to sacrifice my physicality especially because I've been so blessed.
I've seen friends and family send out their love and support. They have been my crutch for the past week. It fills my heart with such bliss to know how strongly they care for me.
Maybe it's enough to know that I've gotten to where I am and who I am today because of love.
XOXO,
Robyn
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
BEACH
Hey There!
Update on my life:
Well, I went to the beach last week for the Fourth of July. It was fun/incredible/awesome and totally worth the car ride with no air conditioning.
I know, how did we survive that?
Seriously, it wasn't that bad because we would go in the morning, but it still was a little uncomfortable. Like I said though, totally worth it.
Since I'd never driven myself to a vacation before I decided that I wanted some company. And what better way to spend a week at the beach than to go with friends. I ended up choosing 2 of my good homeschool friends and it was hard because I really didn't want to hurt feelings. I know how that feels and it stinks. But in this scenario, I hope that I handled it well and didn't come across as a brat. I really was just trying to do what was best and to pick friends who I knew would get along with family.
Beach life is SO my life. It was wonderful to be by the water, just relaxing and getting pampered by my aunt and her family. My cousins went out of their way to accommodate us, which was very nice. We all had loads of fun and I enjoyed seeing everyone get along.
I also got home just in time to see my Great Grandma stop by our house on her way to my Nana's. Every time I see my 95 year old Great Grandma I am filled with this incredible assurance. It's almost like I get this feeling that by the time I am her age my life right now, that I make SUCH a big deal of, will be of little to no consequence. That test I didn't do so great in? That summer of stressing and organizing before leaving for college? My summer jam? My new clothes? How many push ups or pull ups I did? How many miles I ran? They won't make a difference in the world when I reach my 90's. If I reach them!
So stop worrying! I'm enjoying this season in my life. That in-between awkward age where you are exercising more independence and yet a part of you is still clinging for the comfort and ease of home. Let go and let live.
"I am not afraid, I was born to do this." - Joan of Arc.
Please keep my Great Grandma in you prayers. She has shingles and although she is doing much better, she still has pains. She has been very calm and strong throughout the storms in her life recently. It's really been a blessing to watch her live her life and to see all the love she has poured into her family.
Another joy of this summer has been planning and preparing for the birth of my goddaughter and baby sister! I'm SO EXCITED! Do you know how good it is to see a pink blanket after 10 years of seeing blue ones?
TTFN!
Update on my life:
Well, I went to the beach last week for the Fourth of July. It was fun/incredible/awesome and totally worth the car ride with no air conditioning.
I know, how did we survive that?
Seriously, it wasn't that bad because we would go in the morning, but it still was a little uncomfortable. Like I said though, totally worth it.
Since I'd never driven myself to a vacation before I decided that I wanted some company. And what better way to spend a week at the beach than to go with friends. I ended up choosing 2 of my good homeschool friends and it was hard because I really didn't want to hurt feelings. I know how that feels and it stinks. But in this scenario, I hope that I handled it well and didn't come across as a brat. I really was just trying to do what was best and to pick friends who I knew would get along with family.
Beach life is SO my life. It was wonderful to be by the water, just relaxing and getting pampered by my aunt and her family. My cousins went out of their way to accommodate us, which was very nice. We all had loads of fun and I enjoyed seeing everyone get along.
I also got home just in time to see my Great Grandma stop by our house on her way to my Nana's. Every time I see my 95 year old Great Grandma I am filled with this incredible assurance. It's almost like I get this feeling that by the time I am her age my life right now, that I make SUCH a big deal of, will be of little to no consequence. That test I didn't do so great in? That summer of stressing and organizing before leaving for college? My summer jam? My new clothes? How many push ups or pull ups I did? How many miles I ran? They won't make a difference in the world when I reach my 90's. If I reach them!
So stop worrying! I'm enjoying this season in my life. That in-between awkward age where you are exercising more independence and yet a part of you is still clinging for the comfort and ease of home. Let go and let live.
"I am not afraid, I was born to do this." - Joan of Arc.
Please keep my Great Grandma in you prayers. She has shingles and although she is doing much better, she still has pains. She has been very calm and strong throughout the storms in her life recently. It's really been a blessing to watch her live her life and to see all the love she has poured into her family.
Another joy of this summer has been planning and preparing for the birth of my goddaughter and baby sister! I'm SO EXCITED! Do you know how good it is to see a pink blanket after 10 years of seeing blue ones?
TTFN!
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