The air is damp/humid with a touch of chill. Clouds cover the sky and the lush greens are a reminder of the rain from yesterday. But this dreary weather cannot dampen my mood. My Grandpa's watching hockey while my dad checks his baseball app. I feel so at home. Emotions running through me are peace, acceptance, relief, joy and appreciation.
WHAT an insane first year of college.
On July 23rd, I got my firsts wake up call of just how life changing this year would be when I broke my metatarsal. Not playing soccer for 3 months and the social challenges of being disunited with a team since I wasn't bleeding on the field with them was such a learning process. I learned that some girls I thought I was friends with weren't very excited for me when I recovered and started to show them that I can play soccer. I learned that I'm not as good as I thought that I was in high school. And I learned how to adapt to coaches who do things very differently than high school. Sometimes I felt like I was on an island by myself on the team (ugh that girl with the boot). But I also discovered how beautiful some girls are who genuinely care for me as a person and not just what I do on the field. Making genuine connections with these soccer girls who I thought that I didn't have anything in common with has been so good for me. They've taught me to enjoy the community of the team, including bible studies, Zumba classes, and late night study parties. I fell, but I came back. I struggled, but I'm resiliently working towards my goal of playing on the first team. And I will, one day. Hopefully in the fall! My coaches have indicated to me that I should get playing time on the first team so now I just have to take care of myself this summer. All the pieces are falling into place.
I'll talk about all my other growing areas another time....
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